Rediscover Yourself

For the last few years I really thought I got myself all figured out. I have a great job doing what I love, a happy marriage that’s full of love and support, and have all the energy in the world to come up with new ideas and goals for myself. I felt more confident than ever about who I am, and the last thing I wanted was for anything to change.

Not that change was bad, but I like change on my terms, when I’m ready. That’s really just wishful thinking from a control freak, because no matter how prepared you are, you can’t plan your life exactly how you imagine it to be. You can come close, but the universe around you is full of surprises. And truthfully, that’s a good thing. That is how you learn and grow, from those unexpected events that forces you to push yourself a little more.

And the biggest push I got recently was finding out that my world will never be the same again…My husband of 5 years and I found out we’re expecting a baby!

As I mentioned, I’m a control freak, a planner. And the news of the baby was both exciting and terrifying. My business woman, do-it-all identity now seemed much less significant. I’m now a mom. My job is to make a little human being…one that will surprise me everyday for the rest of my life.

Honestly, I was not ready for this change, who is really. I guess with so much going on, I was still hanging on to my youth, taking advantage of my high energy level. I didn’t have any close friends with babies, I had no idea how being pregnant changes the body. I found out soon enough that eating and sleeping became my top priority. I couldn’t help it. The body took over and I had to give in and fuel it with healthy food, and rest when a couch or bed was near by. Business woman? me? no…I don’t have time for that! I have to plan my next meal, I’ve got a baby to feed!

People say a baby changes your life. I didn’t believe them, thinking I can do it all. I know I still can when my energy is back, but honestly…I am enjoying my new job. I look forward to having a big bowl of blueberries and yogurt with walnut sprinkles (all good food for mommy and baby) I enjoy relaxing and doing my prenatal yoga, knowing each breath I take I’m bringing oxygen for the baby. I’m coming up with new ideas on how to teach my child to eat healthy, a potentially marketable idea. I’m learning to slow down and not try to do everything myself. I have found more balance in my life that I’ve never had before.

I’m sure I’ll be discovering more things about myself in the coming months, and continue to as the baby grow up. I will always have that business side of me that will want to design a new baby line. I’ll always plan and make lists of a million things I want or need to do. But now I know sometimes the best thing in life aren’t planned. They just happen, and it is a miracle when they do.

I hope when you least expected, you’ll have a chance to rediscover yourself too. A new relationship, a different career path, moving to a new place to start a life, whatever it may be, enjoy the ride to becoming who you really are.